How Great It Was Then...

i wish things could've stayed the same... but that's maturity...

i miss the days when most of my scenemates were simple people with good taste... i miss the days when we all knew where we stood and why we were standing there... i miss the days when we were merely fans... i miss the times when we were helping each other grow in music, art and taste... i miss the days where we all looked at each others back with our heads in check... i miss the days when we all celebrate in our own little obscurity... i miss the days when indie was just simply indie... "precious and pure"

But things change, sometimes for the better but i don't think it's quite the same here...

Things Within: (Silos)... "too many autumn leaves do fall in winter"

Crab Mentality rules and when "most" bands tend to get an idea that they're hitting their "mark", they develop a tendency to slag others off as if the "others' never happened in the first place... I hate that really... it's a scary prelude to extinction if you ask me... On a brighter note, i think there have been some new acts showing a great deal of promise surfacing here and there in this beloved country of ours but i haven't really gotten to know most of them in fear of the obvious - which is them turning out to be utter disappointments... sorry, i'm always like this... but there have been quite a who've a made a believer out of me... i want to be a fan too... honestly...

Nearby Town: (Candyaudioline) "... pretty faces all around, it's a place not far away"

i pity those who had they're chance but never quite held to it... these are those who thought they made a touchdown but actually they're still far from the scoring field... there were a few in the old days but they seem to rule the present... i feel really sad for the future coz this seem what's to be coming to them...

Time Thief: (Pale Saints) "... the words are breezing and theres always, one more clue to comprehend"

it's a good thing that "old Soft Pillow Kisses member is here... Brings back those really neat memories when he's with us... having him back here even just for a short while makes me remember how cool it was like wearing the "indie tag"...

Try To Smile: (Soft Pillow Kisses) "...just won't open my eyes, coz the sight it depresses, depresses, depress"

i miss the first few months of this band, it was all fun then... just trying to make really nice songs... no living up to anything in particular... just five individuals enjoying each other's company... joey and bong likes hanging out with me, i like seeing apple (miranda), we all get a kick out of beejays's cath-school-teen-chick-antics... once on stage, we're still the same five individuals enjoying shared space wearing simple smiles while laughing our hearts out at each blunders we made...

this in not to say that i'm not happy with Pillow now, i still am but back then, Pillow was more of a Living Entity but now its just Name...