I Don't Know What To Say...

hello everyone...

it's been a very long time since my last proper post... the reason is this, there's nothing really good happening to us lately...

Can't come up with a practice session with the regular soft pillow kisses members because each one has been either quite busy or really unavailable or just simply not in the proper frame of mind... in fact, i can't even organize a proper practice session with candyaudioline!!!

Charles just suffered a terrible loss of a loved one although he did tell me that he
'll be avaible very soon and he miss jamming and being with the rest of us... Jann Paul also isn't available. specially now that he has been moved to 4pm to 1am shift... although we did get to see each other last Monday as he went to our office and paid me a visit... he told me that he'll be available for practice during Sundays and Mondays... Rene on the otherhand isn't his usual indiepop personna lately... maybe it's the time of the year where a person becomes a totally different individual, sort of a temporary phase wherein he'd be totally out of sinc with the rest of us... hope that it is only temporary... Marian too is like out of it for a while... i can't seem to get in touch with her... i've been calling her for the past couple of days but she hasn't been returning my calls...

talk about though... well, i'm trying my best to understand the situation... i'm being patient for the time being... hope things change for the better in the days to come... i miss this band... i miss my bandmates so much...

Trying To Smile...

there are times when life can be all summer and spring...
full of happiness and promise...
like a perpetual glide in a sky dressed in technicolor playfullness...

then all of sudden, without warning, you fall...
a fall so devastating, you suddenly find yourself scattered in several billions of pieces scattered a few million light years a part...

but "life goes on anyway"...

Charles and Anne had recently lost their lovely baby Charlene... seeing her yesterday and just a while back at her wake got me thinking really hard... raising questions about life...

Fate and Faith... How and Why... Why, Why and WHY...

As we left Charles and Anne a while back, i can't help but feel sorry and sad for them for i can really feel the sadness and grief behind their smiles...

Sayang Biitin...

Hello Peeps,

We played at Route196 last night and inspite of really having a great time performing we really didn't get to enjoy much it because we were allowed only 4 songs...

just as when we were getting ready to let loose...

it was suppose to be hell that night due to Charles backing out at the last minute due to personal matters and Dennis' (Candyaudioline) uncertainty of filling in for Charles coz he had a gig with Tether (Dennis' mother band and one of the coolest bands around) somewhere near by... I was really relieved when he told me that Tether were to perform early and that he'll have ample time of catching up with us... Me, Kel and Rene had an impromtu last minute practice session chosing songs to play incase we won't have anyone doing lead...

it was really close considering that Dennis arrived just in time as the band (Ang bannday Shirley) before us was almost done with their last song... Also, i regret not playing "Undercover Angel" that time although we did play an alternate (Disco) take of "Just Like The Sky"...

Maybe next time, we'll get to play longer and earlier so that more people will get to see us and hopefully would come to terms with the fact that __________________
_________________________________... (Just fill it up... But if you know me, you'd propably have an idea of how the statement would go.. Di ba Selena?)